Wednesday 30 December 2015

Faith: HOPE

A year ago I was in a place of what I felt was no return, I was in a big hole and was struggling to find a way out. However, I wasn't on my own, I had friends around me trying to pull me out, and a four letter word which kept being told to me: HOPE.

Yes I am a Christian but I was struggling at this stage, I felt like God was not with me, but in reflection he was with me but I was trying hard to walk away, but he persevered and kept putting people and things in front of me to help me. And he succeeded, I climbed out of the hole, I have bad days still, but recently more good than bad, and am clinging onto HOPE.

So what is HOPE? In the words of one of  my favourite bloggers Emma Scrivener, this is what HOPE is.

Hope.
Whatever you’re facing; (and even if you’re refusing to face it).
Not a wishy-washy sense that everything will be okay.
Not a feeling or a temperament.
Not a stake in something that can be torn away.
Hope.
Not something you work up by yourself.
Not dependent on those around you.
Not about your house or your health or your happiness.
Hope.
Not for other people.
Not for when you've earned it and ticked off your list.
Not for when the holiday comes or you catch up on sleep.
Not for when you’re better or worse or anywhere but here.
Hope.
This moment.
As you read this.  As you run for your train.  As you make the lunch and drive the car and open the computer and feed the dogs. As you sorrow and as you laugh. Every challenge, every heartbreak, every celebration. Hope.

A fact, not a feeling.
A gift, not a reward.

Hope.
“Christ in you, the hope of glory” (Colossians 1:27).
“an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.” (Hebrews 6:19)
“on Him we have set our hope” (2 Corinthians 1:10).
“And hope does not disappoint.” (Romans 5:5)


Whatever you are facing and whatever you may feel. Now. Tomorrow.  And forever.


Tuesday 29 December 2015

Literature: Top 100 Children's Books

The other night on Television, Channel 4 showed the Top 50 Children's books. It was an interesting watch, and reminded me of all the books I read when I was a child and good to see some of the new ones out as well.  I decided to take a look at the Top 100 list  to see how many of the 100 I had read.

Out of the top 50 I have read 29.  That is more than half. And it seems the ones I have read are the older ones, must read some of the newer ones.

I have highlighted the ones I had read in red!

  1. Winnie the Pooh (especially The House at Pooh Corner)
    A.A. Milne (illustrated by E H Shepard)
  2. The Chronicles of Narnia (especially The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe)
    C.S. Lewis (illustrated by Pauline Baynes)
  3. Harry Potter (especially Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone)
    J.K. Rowling
  4. Where the Wild Things are
    Maurice Sendak
  5. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
    Roald Dahl (illustrated by Quentin Blake)
  6. The Wind in the Willows
    Kenneth Grahame (illustrated by E H Shepard)
  7. The Very Hungry Caterpillar
    Eric Carle
  8. A Bear Called Paddington
    Michael Bond (illustrated by Peggy Fortnum)
  9. The Gruffalo
    Julia Donaldson (illustrated by Axel Scheffler)
  10. The Hobbit
    J.R.R. Tolkien
  11. The Cat in the Hat
    Dr Seuss
  12. Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
    Lewis Carroll (illustrated by John Tenniel)
  13. We're Going on a Bear Hunt
    Michael Rosen (illustrated by Helen Oxenbury)
  14. Little Women
    Louisa May Alcott
  15. Alfie and Annie Rose (especially Dogger)
    Shirley Hughes
  16. Pippi Longstocking
    Astrid Lingren (illustrated by Lauren Child)
  17. The Tiger Who Came to Tea
    Judith Kerr
  18. Finn Family Moomintroll
    Tove Jansson
  19. The Complete Tales of Beatrix Potter (especially The Tale of Peter Rabbit)
    Beatrix Potter
  20. Journey to the River Sea
    Eva Ibbotson
  21. The Story of Tracy Beaker
    Jacqueline Wilson (illustrated by Nick Sharratt)
  22. Kensuke's Kingdom
    Michael Morpurgo
  23. Goodnight Mr Tom
    Michelle Magorian
  24. Rooftoppers
    Katherine Rundell
  25. A Monster Calls
    Patrick Ness (illustrated by Jim Kay)
  26. The Railway Children
    E. Nesbitt
  27. Millions
    Frank Cottrell Boyce
  28. The Snowman
    Raymond Briggs
  29. The Arrival
    Shaun Tan
  30. The Snow Queen
    Hans Christian Andersen
  31. Black Beauty
    Anna Sewell
  32. Famous Five (especially Five on a Treasure Island)
    Enid Blyton
  33. Just William (especially Just William)
    Richmal Crompton
  34. Holes
    Louis Sachar
  35. Stig of the Dump
    Clive King
  36. The Boy in the Dress
    David Walliams (illustrated by Quentin Blake)
  37. Charlie and Lola (especially I Will Never Not Ever Eat a Tomato)
    Lauren Child
  38. The Jolly Postman
    Allan and Janet Ahlberg
  39. Horrid Henry (especially Horrid Henry Strikes it Rich)
    Francesca Simon (illustrated by Tony Ross)
  40. How to Train your Dragon
    Cressida Cowell
  41. The Wee Free Men
    Terry Pratchett
  42. Alex Rider (especially Stormbreaker)
    Anthony Horowitz
  43. Mortal Engines (especially Mortal Engines)
    Philip Reeve
  44. The Secret Garden
    Francis Hodgson Burnett (illustrated by Inga Moore)
  45. Just So Stories
    Rudyard Kipling
  46. This is Not my Hat
    Jon Klassen
  47. Fortunately, the Milk
    Neil Gaiman (illustrated by Chris Riddell)
  48. Charlotte's Web
    E B White (illustrated by Garth Williams)
  49. Diary of a Wimpy Kid
    Jeff Kinney
  50. Treasure Island
    Robert Louis Stevenson
And from the last 50 I have just read 19 of them..... so all together, out of the top 100 Children's Books, I have only read 48 - not even half of them... quite bad really. There are some which I feel should be on the list but aren't:

The War Horse by Michael Morporgo
James and the Giant Peach: Roald Dahl
I am David: Anne Holm

But overall the list is good. How many have you read?

Tuesday 22 December 2015

Flash Fiction: The Death of Spencer

I didn’t mean to do it, it was a complete accident.  All I wanted to do was make sure his home was clean, but it all went wrong.

I felt bad, Spencer was my mate, and he swam around the bowl happily.  He always came to say hello when I came into the room, well, really he was looking for food.  He was a greedy fish, or did he just forget when he had last eaten.  His memory wasn’t so good!

It had been a couple of weeks and his water was dirty. I did not like leaving him in dirty water, was not good for him or kind to him.  His house needed a clean, his water needed changed.  I was tired, but was determined to be a good person and do this task for wee Spencer.  I couldn’t let him keep living in squalor.  Little did I know that this would be fatal for poor wee Spence.  Little did Spencer know that he would never get to swim again in the great big fishbowl that was his home.

It was a complete mistake.  A fatal mistake.  Spencer was taken out of his bowl, he was a hard catch but I managed to catch him.  I put him in a jug, but oops there was no water in said jug so I decided that needed rectified as he would die if he was not in water for a while. Ironic, when you think about it! 

I turn the tap on, Spencer is still in the jug. Spencer jumps.  More water. Spencer stops moving.  Oh crap that’s not cold water, that’s hot water. What have I done?  I turn the tap quickly from hot to cold. “Revive, Spencer, Revive” I shout at the poor wee lifeless fish. He jumps.  I put him back in his bowl full of lots of lovely cold water. He moves a bit more. Looks like he is swimming. Yeah, he’s not dead, I haven’t killed him.


But no, the swimming stops.  Crap.  I have killed him, basically I cooked him, committed fish slaughter to my poor wee innocent defenceless fish. I cried. I was upset. I miss my wee pet.  I miss my wee Spencer.  My heart still hurts. Wherever you are Spencer, swim well pet, swim well! 

Flash Fiction: So Much Promise

“Such a shame. That boy had so much promise”.  Shaking her head, she remembered some of the times she had seen him in the swimming pool.  He was like a dolphin.

Simon swam so fast and barely caused a ripple in the water.  He was a graceful swimmer.  The first time Jan saw him swim, she was amazed and laughed to her friend Jill and said, “is that a boy or a fish?!”  Jan would not have been surprised if when Simon came out of the water, he had gills instead of arms!

By the age of 10, Sion had already won so many medals at school events, galas etc. and he was a sure thing for the Olympics and Commonwealth games when he reached the correct age.  His whole town were proud of him even his fellow school mates – they held him in awe but also felt a bit jealous of him too. But not on wished harm on him.

Why Jan was so devastated when she saw what happened and heard the fateful news.   Jan was walking down the high street, listening to her music thinking about the week ahead, the awful week ahead, when she heard a blood curling scream and tires screeching and burning the road.  Jan ran to see what happened and saw a motorbike lying on the road with the motorcyclist lying on the road a few yards away, his dead black eyes staring back at Jan. He wasn’t wearing a helmet. An error.

Jan nearly vomited at the site before her eyes, so turned towards the Motorcycle to help her focus again. This was when she  wished she had never done so, because they was a huge lump under the bike, and after a closer look, Jan noticed that the lump was not a lump, but it was a boy.  And lying a behind him was an arm – a detached arm.  Again Jan couldn’t not bear this. She turned away again.

Jan was wondering to herself who the boy was, and whether he was alive or dead?  It was then she noticed a woman on the ground crying, totally heartbroken and unable to breathe. No one was with her, so Jan walked towards her, and realised this devastated mother was Mrs Nicholson, the mother of Sam, the dolphin swimmer. 

So many thoughts were swimming around Jan’s head – “why this? why him? Why wee Simon? Why Mrs Nicholson, why her son?”  Jan thought Simon was dead.  She didn’t know what to do, but she did the one thing she would want someone to do if she was in Mrs Nicholson’s shoes, she got down beside Mrs Nicholson and put her arm around her. 

The tears were streaming down her face and the face of Mrs Nicholson, and the screams coming from the women beside her were awful, but eventually they stopped and all Jan could feel beside her was the shuddering of this women sitting beside her, curled in against her, learning on her for comfort and support.  Jan was frozen.

Jan looked up and saw that everyone was standing on the side of the road, watching everything unfold. No one was speaking, just standing and staring.  Jan could not believe this and was about to lash out at them calling them heartless when the sirens of the ambulance came blaring towards her.  Help, at last, she thought. Thank Goodness.

There wasn’t just one ambulance, there were two. One for each victim.  The ambulances stopped and the paramedics rushed out, four of them, two ran towards Simon while two ran towards the cyclist.  
After being with the cyclist for two minutes, Jan was surprised to see him being rolled onto the stretcher - they don’t usually do that so quickly unless the person is dead.  Jan didn’t know what to think, she thought awful for the cyclists parents, but her mind was brought back to Simon very quickly when Mrs Nicholson let a big scream out of her again. Jan turned back towards her quickly expecting for her first dears to be confirmed, that Simon, the dolphin boy was also dead.  But she was to be proved wrong, because Mrs Nicholson had a huge smile on her face, Simon wasn’t dead.


“He’s going to be alright, I have my wee boy back, my wee swimmer. I can’t wait to see him back in the water. I thought I had lost him forever”. Jan smiled back at her, but was also thinking, what about Simon’s arm, does she not see it is not attached to his body anymore. What’s going to happen when she realises that Simon, will not be able to be her wee dolphin boy anymore, as his arm was no longer part of him.  Poor Simon, only 10, and he has such promise as a swimmer and now he would never be able to swim again like he used too. 

Saturday 12 December 2015

Faith: Why I love Him?

I know I haven't posted in a while and even this time what I am blogging is not my own work. I have reposted some of Emma Scriveners blog posts before and am doing so again.

Emma's latest post about Why she loves Him, spoke to me and what she wrote was beautiful and true for me as it was for her, and am sure true for others. I have taken her reasons and added my own as well.

Who is this Him she and I love? Jesus - the one man who will never leave us, forsake us, let us down, lie to us, cheat on us - the one man who will love us forever no matter what we do because He has already forgiven us.

So why do I love Him?

He loved me first.
He has forgiven me.
He died on the cross for me.
He’s never too busy.
He always listens to me.
He treated men and women equally in a time when no-one else did.
Everything I love was made by Him.
He always watches over me
He knows all my faults and sees all my mistakes, yet He still loves me.
He invited me into His family.
He will never abandon me or leave me or hurt me.
He knows me inside-out and still, He stays.
He hates injustice and abuse.
He is Lord over all creation – yet He made Himself a tiny dependent baby.
When the soldiers said, “If you’re God’s son, come down from the cross,” He stayed. For me.
He practised what He preached.
There is no-one like Him.
He was exhausted and persecuted yet He still had compassion on the people who crowded around Him.
Everything He has, He shares with us.
He loves His Dad and tells everyone how much.
He sees what we try to keep hidden and He says, “come into the light.”
He gives everything; including Himself.

One thing I ask from the Lord,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord

and to seek him in his temple. Psalm 27:4