Mother Teresa once said ‘I know
God will not give me anything I cannot handle. I just wish He didn’t trust me
so much’
When I was diagnosed with MS in
2014 this phrase was quoted to me and I though huh, glad she was so wrong – but
I wasn’t and it took me almost two years to get to terms with my diagnosis and
really believe that God was on this journey with me. I realised that me having MS was hard for me
to handle on my own but with God by myside I could handle it and anything else.
Over the past four years I have
heard this quote now more than once and have listened to people preaching and
read books on this issue and how we should thank God for trusting us with the things
He brings into our lives.
Four years ago I could not thank
God for my MS but now I can and I do. Why? Well because if it wasn’t for my MS
diagnosis I wouldn’t be where I am today:
- I wouldn’t be in a good place with God
- I wouldn’t be in a good place with myself
- I wouldn’t be in a good place with my family and friends and I wouldn’t be thankful for them.
Over the past four years people
have been praying for healing for me and although I may not be physically
healed, I have been healed spiritually, emotionally and mentally. The important
thing to remember with healing that there is more than one way a person can be
healed.
And I have been helped in the
past four years by people coming alongside me and praying for me as well as
being supportive in other ways. Yes some people have walked away from me during
the first two very difficult years but those who have stood by me are the ones
whom I am very thankful for – they have been vessels of God.
They have helped me become
stronger and believe in myself and helping me come close to God and bringing me
to the place where I can now say, “God, I don’t wish MS on anyone else and at
times I hate the symptoms I live with, well actually maybe all the time, but I
thank you for trusting me with this illness and I pray that you will use my MS
for your greater glory”
And I am also with Mother Teresa
when she said “I wish He didn’t trust me so much”
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